Fin

Dirt, dirt everywhere.
It’s stuck in my hair
in my clothes
under my fingernails.
With every bite, I can hear the crunch, and feel the grittiness in my mouth.
I don’t even want to eat anymore.
The dirt, the dirt is everywhere.
I take a shower, expecting the water to wash this dirt off.
But it doesn’t. It can’t.
I scrub.
I scrub so hard I start to scream.
I bleed.
My skin, tearing. My heart, aching.
With everything in me, I scrub and I wash.
This soap and water does not clean deep enough.
I JUST CAN’T MAKE IT STOP.
Please. Someone.
Help me make it all stop.